I {always} try to be happy for my friends when pregnancy announcements come out. It seems like they are happening more & more frequently. I've watched friends have baby #1, #2, and #3. I've been supportive. I read & comment on baby photos, pictures of friends with their kids, etc. But today, I'm just disappointed.
I've read everything I can read. I know that it's in God's time, if at all. But quite frankly, I'm getting irritated & MAD at my situation. I just don't understand. I can't wrap my brain around it. I sit back and am genuinely happy for my friends, but {WHEN THE HELL IS IT GOING TO BE MY TURN?}
Today, I'm angry.
And you are allotted those days! And you aren't alone. I feel like disappointment comes in different forms. There are days when I am angry thinking, "Why does everyone else get to have someone to love, and I have to be alone? Why doesn't someone want to love ME?" It's the same kind of thing, just in a different form. All I can say is that it's totally normal for you to be feeling that way, and don't be afraid to feel those things. It's really hard and I still think when the time is right, and you are actively trying, the odds will be much better for you.
ReplyDeleteI really hope your outlook tomorrow is better. It's okay to have bad days. *hugs*